Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Diagnosis........Type 2 Diabetes

Newly diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes!   I went in to the doctors on Monday, March 25th for a whole other issue and turns out my symptoms were because I have Diabetes!

What is up with that???

Ok, ok........first off I have to confess.....I have a major sweet tooth and a deep love for all things potato!!  But I know that isn't all that diabetes is about.   My parents have been diabetic for quite a while now and my sister was diagnosed a little bit ago.  Now I am added to the family history.

I have to admit.....I am shocked but then at the same feel like I shouldn't be so shocked.  It's hard to put into words.  I can say that I am a bit upset with myself.  Although I haven't put on any extra weight, my eating habits haven't been the greatest lately.  I am of course a statistic to the eating later than I should due to work schedule and a busy lifestyle, which of course brings on stress and feeling overwhelmed a lot and then the obvious result of eating out due to all that.   But now that I have been diagnosed.........I need to through all those excuses out the window.  Because that is what they are.....excuses!

After I sat sulking for an evening and scarfed a 3 Muskateers bar (I know I shouldn't have and yes I 'scarfed' it), I at that point became determined.  That was it!  My last candy bar and now it's time to get serious.

So here I am, learning how to manage my sugar levels and what to eat and what not to eat.  Know that during this time I am putting full faith and trust in God.  God is the one who will give me the strength in this journey.  I am praying for healing.......and would appreciate your prayers as well.   I plan to stand on God's Word and trust in His promises.  Seeking His wisdom the whole entire time!

So until my follow-up appointment on Monday........let's all stand and trust in God for all our needs!

God's blessings!


Thursday, March 21, 2013

Just Another One of Those Days....

Yes, it was just another one of those days when Satan tries to steal my joy……..and succeeds!  Ugh!   Why is it that I don’t see that sometimes?  Why is it the day after when I have a meltdown that I realize this fact?  Why is it that I get blindsided when I know what God’s Word says?  I should be living my life in victory because Jesus has already won and therefore, I can live in His VICTORY!!
Ah, but I am of mere flesh……

“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”  Matthew 26:41

It was one of those days when I feel overwhelmed with life or am dealing with some physical pain that Satan just seizes that opportunity, swoops in and steals the joy from me……causing a meltdown.  Yesterday was that day!  I was wearing a new pair of shoes and my feet were killing me…..beyond any pain a new pair of shoes had ever caused.  I was miserable by the end of the day.  Felt like my feet were in vice grips.  I had been feeling a little overwhelmed the last couple of days with all the responsibilities that I have between work, home and other commitments I have made.   And waking up early (way earlier than usual) to make my husband lunch and kiss him before he heads out to work, it was leaving me feeling exhausted.  I usually can fall back asleep but not these last couple days.    
It is amazing how feeling overwhelmed with things in life just opens the door to Satan if I am not careful or not fully prepared for my day.  But I must confess that I was allowing myself to be in that state of mind, allowing myself to feel frustrated and whiney!  I hate to say it but it’s the truth.  You know, that ‘pity party’ that is just a Pit of Lies!  And he just loves it….and swoops in.

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy.” John 10:10a

“Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.” 1 Peter 5:8

Now it’s the day after and it has all passed and now clarity sets in.  I was able to go to bed early last night and get the rest my body was obviously desperate for.  And it’s at this point I am reminded of God’s truth and His promises.  Oh how I cling to Isaiah 40:31!

“but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary,they will walk and not be faint.”  Isaiah 40:31

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30

Sadly, I am sure I will have another one of those kind of days.  But today is not going to be one of them!  Today, I am prepared and I am standing on God’s Word!

Chronicling my walk with my Savior!

God’s blessings,


Friday, July 6, 2012

Friday Feature Song - Remind Me Who I Am by Jason Gray

God really speaks to my heart through music as I am sure He does the same for many of you.  So I decided that I will post a song every Friday that He has really spoken to me through.  Usually once He grabs my heart through a specific song, I listen to it over and over and over again.......and then over and over some more.  

I love this song because it speaks to me during those times when I am feeling that doubt coming on and my strength is wearing thin.  During those times is when I find myself on my knees, face to the floor asking God to remind me who I am to Him.  When He reminds me who I am to Him, He also reminds me who He is and that I belong to Him!


Today's Friday Feature Song is

Remind Me Who I Am
by Jason Gray

Here are the lyrics:
"Remind Me Who I Am" When I lose my way, And I forget my name, Remind me who I am. In the mirror all I see, Is who I don't wanna be, Remind me who I am. In the loneliest places, When I can't remember what grace is. Tell me once again who I am to You, Who I am to You. Tell me lest I forget who I am to You, That I belong to You. To You.  When my heart is like a stone, And I'm running far from home, Remind me who I am. When I can't receive Your love, Afraid I'll never be enough, Remind me who I am. If I'm Your beloved, Can You help me believe it. Tell me once again who I am to You, Who I am to You, whoa. Tell me lest I forget who I am to You. That I belong to You. To You. I'm the one you love, I'm the one you love, That will be enough, I'm the one you love.  Tell me once again who I am to You. Who I am to You. Tell me lest I forget who I am to You, That I belong to You, oh. Tell me once again who I am to You. Who I am to You. Tell me lest I forget who I am to You, That I belong to You. To You. 

Monday, June 25, 2012

Link Up @ The Alabaster Jar

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Sunday, June 24, 2012

Blog Share - A Joyful Heart & Home

I just wanted to share a new blog I came across by way of The Alabaster Jar.   And if you haven't checked out Jolene Engle's website 'The Alabaster Jar', you most definitely need to. 

I found this blog is, 'A Joyful Heart & Home', through Jolene's 'Marital Oneness Monday Link Up!'.

I came across 'A Joyful Heart & Home's June 11th post, "Are You A Hard Worker?", so convenient on a day that I am feeling particularly down and lazy!  I have been struggling with really bad back issues for a while and it can be hard some days to get anything done without being in pain.  When the pain is bad, well frankly, nothing much gets done at all.  It tends to be a domino affect because when the pain comes on, the blues come on and the laziness and frustration is just a manifestation of the two, even on my good days.  As a wife who works a full time job (outside the home), coming home from work at times I am just exhausted and the last thing I feel is motivated.  

So reading this post today just spoke deep to my soul, especially coming from another Sister in Christ!  I love how God uses other sisters or brothers to speak to me, be it by a conversation or even a blog! (of course by all of whom walk with the Lord Jesus Christ as their Savior.)

Please read the post "Are You A Hard Worker? and then finish reading my post.

This really spoke to me today.  Even on my good days that my pain is extremely tolerable, am I a hard worker in my home?  Sadly, I would have to honestly say no.   I often let how I feel run my day, instead of doing what God has called me to do in my role as a wife.  My days definitely do not reflect a Proverbs 31 Woman and often times cooking or serving my husband is the last thing I want to do.  Even more so, after a day at the office.  I often allow Satan to clog my thoughts and my feelings too!  He robs me of my joy and strength that the Lord had given me in the morning

Her post quotes two verses:

Proverbs 31:13 - "She works with her hands in delight."  and;

Colossians 3:23 - "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not men."

These two scriptures bring conviction as these are definitely struggles in my life.  I don't often delight in the work I do at home as I should and just because I work outside the home doesn't give me an excuse to have the attitude that I often have about the duties I have been called to do as a a godly wife.  I also forget quite often in the busyness of work outside the home and the work inside my home, that I am to do it all unto the Lord!!  He is the one I work for because I have given my life over to Him!!  (Forgive me Lord for forgetting that it is all for You and to Your glory!)

So with all that said, I have gathered some index cards and am putting together my Memory Verses, (which I just think is a fantastic idea and thank Ashley from 'A Joyful Heart & Home' Blog for sharing) and am gathering scripture verses that I will memorize and stand upon when I am feeling the back pain, the blues, the laziness and that utter lack of motivation to continue on in this life. 

My focus needs to be always on the Lord.  And when I am out in the water feeling like I am going under, when my eyes are fixed on God, He will lift me up and keep me afloat. 

I hope this Blog Share helped you in some way and thank you for allowing me to share my heart!

In Christ,


Tuesday, June 19, 2012

James - Mercy Triumphs - Session One

What hit home for me from Session One was about 'Comparison'.......the act of comparing. Comparing oneself to another or one group of people to another group of people, be it nationality, religion, skill set or position in life or job.

First let me give you the definition of Comparison. 'The function of an adverb or adjective that is used to indicate degrees of superiority or inferiority in quality, quantity or intensity.' (taken from

The Bible passage in this particular section (pg 29) of the Bible Study was in Galatians.

Galatians 2:1-10

New International Version (NIV)

Paul Accepted by the Apostles

2 Then after fourteen years, I went up again to Jerusalem,this time with Barnabas. I took Titus along also. 2 I went in response to a revelation and, meeting privately with those esteemed as leaders, I presented to them the gospel that I preach among the Gentiles. I wanted to be sure I was not running and had not been running my race in vain. 3 Yet not even Titus, who was with me, was compelled to be circumcised, even though he was a Greek. 4 This matter arose because some false believers had infiltrated our ranks to spy on the freedom we have in Christ Jesus and to make us slaves. 5 We did not give in to them for a moment, so that the truth of the gospel might be preserved for you.

6 As for those who were held in high esteem —whatever they were makes no difference to me; God does not show favoritism —they added nothing to my message. 7 On the contrary, they recognized that I had been entrusted with the task of preaching the gospel to the uncircumcised,[a] just as Peter had been to the circumcised.[b] 8 For God, who was at work in Peter as an apostle to the circumcised, was also at work in me as an apostle to the Gentiles. 9 James, Cephas[c]and John, those esteemed as pillars, gave me and Barnabas the right hand of fellowship when they recognized the grace given to me. They agreed that we should go to the Gentiles, and they to the circumcised. 10 All they asked was that we should continue to remember the poor, the very thing I had been eager to do all along.

You see in verse 4 that "This matter arose because some false believers had infiltrated our ranks to spy on the freedom we have in Christ Jesus and to make us slaves." there were those that were false believers that had come to compare the Gentile believer to the Jewish believer and make the Gentiles slaves to the Jewish tradition of circumcision. The Gentiles had the freedom in Christ and were not bound by the Jewish laws but that also brought comparison into play. Jews vs Gentiles. Remember that the Jews had the Old Testament, the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and now the Gospel of Jesus Christ the Messiah. Gentiles had their Idols which they left behind and became free in the Gospel of Jesus Christ the Messiah, the Savior. The Gentiles did not have the Law of Moses nor the Ten Commandments.

So comparison began. It never ceases to amaze me how Satan uses our differences or insecurities to divide God's people and so often it happens subtly over an extended period of time, note how verse 1 states "after fourteen years".

This section of the study got me thinking of all the insecurities we as humans have just over our differences. And just because one may think themselves superior to another person does not mean that they too are not insecure. When one has to make them self out to be, actually I should say, appear to be, superior to another person, it is most absolutely rooted from an insecurity.

Here is a quote from Beth Moore, page 29 of the study. "God only knows how many effective ministries have disintegrated into irrelevance over addiction to comparison. We talk as those who believe God is omnipotent and omnipresent BUT we often act as if He can only work through one person, one method, or one kind of ministry at a time. If we don't refuse ourselves the indulgence, we can lapse into the mentality of a spoiled child who thinks that, if God shows you favor, He must hate me.

On the other hand, we do our level best not to compare ourselves with those of similar gifting or calling, and others will leap forward to do it for us. Stand back and watch how many observers will try to nudge you into a competition who fills a similar slot. The idea is that anything comparable is automatically competitive."

Wow!!! That is what I have written next to this paragraph in the study. This just blew me away! How often we as a society and especially we as women, compare ourselves. We compare ourselves to others, to pictures in the magazines/commercials/TV that are telling us what we should look like, what jobs we should have, how much money we should be making, what we should possess and what should make us happy. Really being a believer or a non-believer, it doesn't matter! We are all sucked into the lie to some degree at any given time. We continue to allow Satan and this world tell us what is important in life. But as believers, we should know that God and our relationship with our Savior is the only thing that is important in this world. This is not our home! This world is a temporary dwelling for us. We need to be in God's Word every day so that we can be reminded of this continually. Of course, I say this because this is something I struggle with and that is why this section of the study hit home for me. As believers we should not compare ourselves to other believers in the church body but we should encourage one another to carry on with what God has called us individually to do with our God given gifts, and to work together in one accord to further the reaching the lost with the Gospel of Jesus Christ. We most definitely should not compare ourselves to non-believers but be grieved that they are lost and do not have Christ in their life, for they are perishing. I know it is hard to love those that are flat out rude and mean, self-centered with no regard for others, and other ugly traits but Jesus came to save us from that, from the sin that brings those fleshly attitudes out. We are called to love as He loves. He loves us all....for we are all sinners. Even in His forgiveness, we are still sinners. The fact is we have a relationship with His and we have given our lives over to Him. Our hearts should be broken for what breaks His and we need to die to our flesh and be His light to our darken world that does not know Him. I hope this encourages you in Jesus tonight. I pray that it refreshes your weary soul as it has refreshed mine. I really feel that this section of the Beth Moore study of James-Mercy Triumphs leaped off the pages right into my heart and soul. God's timing is so very perfect. He never stops 'blowing me away' with His love and how He speaks exactly what I need right into my heart at the moment I need it! May we remember not to compare ourselves to anyone. Let's also remember that God made us in His image (Genesis 1:27), and we are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14).

 In Christ, 

Friday, June 8, 2012

James Study

On my last post I shared "What's Next?" after our Women's Bible study ended. About a week ago I began the Beth Moore study of James - Mercy Triumphs for the summer.

What a week it has been! Session 1 was amazing and I will share what really grabbed a hold of my heart in another post.

I really love the way Beth Moore brings the Word of God to life and explains it so vividly and teaches the history about it all too! The passion she has for studying the Word of God is just so contagious!! Today I started Session 2 and I can't begin to describe how excited I am about this study!!

I am curious what you all are studying during the summer? Whatever Book you are studying I pray that God does a radical transformation in our lives!

God Bless!